amazingsara's blog

if you're into sensitive songs and meaningfulness, this is the list for you
XOXOXO
Sick inside by Hope Partlow
Just a kid by Simple Plan
Breathe Easy by Blue
Everytime by Britney Spears
My immortal by Evanesence
My Happy ending by Avril Lavigne
Built this way by Samantha Ronson
What's good for me by Lucy
Cry by Mandy moore
Heartless by the fray
I'm with you by Avril Lavigne
how to save a life by the Fray
Why can't I by Liz phair
Love just is by Hilary duff
One in a million by Miley Cyrus
If you come to me by Atomic Kittens
Stuck by Stacie Orrico
Goodbye my lover by James Blunt
Lost without you by Delta Goodrem
White whorse by Taylor Swift
When you're gone by Avril Lavigne
I miss you by Miley Cyrus

Why do i feel so sick inside?
it makes me wanna cry, I can't focus anymore, I'm a mess! I don't like the way it feels, I just wish that none of that EVER happened! I know you probably don't know what I'm talking about but ... who cares???
I just wanna be normal again, me again, the Sara that doesn't care about what people think of her, the girl who dresses the way she feels, I wanna not care about what other people are buying and if I should get it or not ...
if this is what highschool's like, then I don't wanna be in it!

I think everyone agrees when i say that life was so much simpler when we used to be kids; you meet someone at school and suddenly they're your best friend ... when you used to work for good grades more than you cared about the latest labels .. "I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare" very wise words by "Simple plan"

I need desperate help with how I feel .............

I'm such an idiot! wanna know why? .... here's why; last year I was a sunior in middle school, there was this really cute guy who studied with me. I had SUCH a crush on him and for the entire year I couldn't tell him how I feel. at first I was denying my feelings towards him but now, "the beginning of high school" I had this makeover done and I was planning on telling him. but through my little sister "Kim" who is my best friend also, told me that everyone in my old school knows about it and so does everyone in my new high school thanks to this "bitch" that everyone calls "the mouth" she's the girl that spreds rumors about crushes and stuff like that.
now I'm so angry rather embarrased that the guy knows about it.
you wanna know why it's a big deal to me?
here's why; do you guys know that quiet girl from school, the one who doesn't speak until spoken to, the one with the good grades and funny personality. that's me, the girl who never, i repeat, NEVER had a boyfriend or even talked to someone hse liked before! I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do, how can i get out of this without getting hurt?
am I the butt of their jokes?
I hate my life right now.

Have you ever felt like you're put in a place where you don't belong? well, that's my case, where I live doesn't feel like home, I can't fit in with the society around me which is why I'm always alone, it's either in school or even at home, no one gets me. why do I feel this way? is it because I'm a teenager? or because I'm special like mom tells me, but what if I don't wanna be special? what if I wanna be like everyone else?
sometimes I dream about leaving this place and going somewhere new, I feel like escaping from everything and just see the world and feel it, Gosh! it's so beautiful to think about what my life would be like if I travel the world! it's my ultimate dream!

when I look back in my life, I find that sad memories have outdone the good ones, all the things that used to make me cry, they just don't anymore, and for some reason I find my self rising above my fears and fighting them without shedding a single tear, hatred had made a home out of my heart towards the ones I can't stand but now I know that I'm too good to waist my time worrying about pathetic people who will never get any smarter or see life differently.
it's probably gonna take me a long time to erase the scarves of pain but i will do that eventually.
calling someone stupid is not gonna make you any smarter, calling someone ugly is not gonna make you any prettier and hating the people and I hate definitely did not make me any happier.
I wanna live the life and follow my dreams just like what a good friend told me, all I have to do is believe in my self and trust my self enough to make a change in my life even if it's small at least I've done something useful.
I'm gonna look back to my past to remind my self of building a better future, a time where my hopes and dreams aren't shattered on the floor and tied by fear and unfairness.
I'm going to change, make my priorities, stop been scared! life's short and all one can do is live it.
don't you agree?